I
am a very shy person. I don’t make friends very easily. Even with friends I take
time to open up but that’s not all I am unable to show how much I love them or
like them or how much I care for them. Whatever I will do for them I do them
following the diktats of my heart and once done I don’t ever feel that I have
done something extraordinary. Similarly at my workplace my friends are few, I don’t
go around calling on officers, appreciating the décor of their room, or how
handsome or beautiful they looked that day in their expensive designer dresses
or how blessed they were to have such beautiful wives or genius kids. But this
has been my greatest drawback. People especially those related officially have
inferred that I m unsocial and full of ego…..but can I change…..appears
impossible ……I am still a child at heart
…..who fears whether the school teacher will fire him following the day of
submission of an assignment ….telling how dumb he was and how hopeless his essay
had been. Believe me friends I am still in that stage…..Really…..the other day
I mustered enough courage and presented a copy of the book I had penned down “The
Unfortunate kidnapping” to a very reputed IFS officer who was also my course
coordination during probation days. And believe me that night I could not sleep
thinking how foolish I had been to gift him the book, what would he think on
reading it….how childish my writings were….and so many things……The next two
days I spent thinking how would I face him when I would attend his lecture. And
when he arrived for the lecture I hardly looked at him and quickly slipped out
during the tea break……But as luck would have it …..some of my colleagues
standing in the verandah and sipping tea with him beckoned me animatedly as I was
passing through the corridor on the first floor. Nervous and apprehensive I was
forced to join them….only to find out that the same officer (my course
coordinator) had been looking for me….I threw a nervous glance at him….and to
my utter surprise I found him extending his hand for a shake with profuse
compliments for my book and writing skills, comparing with the feel he got
while reading my book…that of none other than Ruskin Bond……and friends I could
not sleep for the next two days ago…..this time due to some unexplainable
joy!!!
