Tuesday 2 February 2016

A nudge to remember

My watch showed 8:15. I was rushing home after the morning walk thinking of the short time I had in hand to reach the office. May be a packed breakfast today will  save time. I was also motivating myself that the weather had changed and now I needed to be a little less lazy and finish the morning routine before it was time for kids to get ready for school. Lost in thoughts I quickly passed by the old lady as she walked laboriously towards home. I could have stopped and walked the next 100 yards together but then I had already greeted her and exchanged pleasantries in the park itself and now I was literally running towards home. I had barely gone a few yards when I heard her say “beta jara mujhe paar kara dena, aj bilkul chala nahi jata”. I stopped, a little ashamed, then held her hand and walked together very slowly. In the course of the next hundred yards and ten minutes she revealed that her arthritic knees had inflamed and today she had come despite pain. And she was scared about crossing the patch of road where water was flowing courtesy a broken pipeline underneath, near the edge. She also wondered why so many officers living nearby had not bothered to complain when everyone was so concerned about “saving water.”   I almost blushed again, this time with guilt.
At the corner, as I took leave and we said goodbye to each other, she whispered again, “Mai soch rahi thi kisko bulau, kaise chalu per Rabji (God) ne tuhanu bhejia.”  The profound affection in her eyes really made my day. And not to forget that today And I made it a point to lodge a complaint for that leaking pipe. Sometimes a little nudge full of love is indeed needed to keep our conscience awake.!!   



Saturday 19 December 2015

The drawbacks of being shy

I am a very shy person. I don’t make friends very easily. Even with friends I take time to open up but that’s not all I am unable to show how much I love them or like them or how much I care for them. Whatever I will do for them I do them following the diktats of my heart and once done I don’t ever feel that I have done something extraordinary. Similarly at my workplace my friends are few, I don’t go around calling on officers, appreciating the décor of their room, or how handsome or beautiful they looked that day in their expensive designer dresses or how blessed they were to have such beautiful wives or genius kids. But this has been my greatest drawback. People especially those related officially have inferred that I m unsocial and full of ego…..but can I change…..appears impossible ……I am still a child  at heart …..who fears whether the school teacher will fire him following the day of submission of an assignment ….telling how dumb he was and how hopeless his essay had been. Believe me friends I am still in that stage…..Really…..the other day I mustered enough courage and presented a copy of the book I had penned down “The Unfortunate kidnapping” to a very reputed IFS officer who was also my course coordination during probation days. And believe me that night I could not sleep thinking how foolish I had been to gift him the book, what would he think on reading it….how childish my writings were….and so many things……The next two days I spent thinking how would I face him when I would attend his lecture. And when he arrived for the lecture I hardly looked at him and quickly slipped out during the tea break……But as luck would have it …..some of my colleagues standing in the verandah and sipping tea with him beckoned me animatedly as I was passing through the corridor on the first floor. Nervous and apprehensive I was forced to join them….only to find out that the same officer (my course coordinator) had been looking for me….I threw a nervous glance at him….and to my utter surprise I found him extending his hand for a shake with profuse compliments for my book and writing skills, comparing with the feel he got while reading my book…that of none other than Ruskin Bond……and friends I could not sleep for the next two days ago…..this time due to some unexplainable joy!!! 

Monday 31 August 2015

MISPLACED JUDGEMENT


For the last few days he was drawing my attention, restlessly roaming around near the edges of the slip road near the power sub-station. His demeanour was not at all striking, middle aged with a lean frame, dressed in a crumpled white shirt, baggy black pants, a yellow cap on his head and nude pumps in his feet. He would be visible for a few seconds and then mysteriously disappear from view, mingling with the crowd of passer bys on the busy road. The windows of my room perhaps had sensed my curiosity towards the fellow and were somehow able to telepathically communicate with my mind, forcing me to throw a quick glance outside whenever he was in the range of my vision......

My educated mind, would always dive into the ocean of probabilities....to find out one that would fit into his innocuous ways......did he work in the huge sawmill across the road, did he own a teashop near the pavement, was he employed in the power sub- station.........But his carefree ways ruled out him being an employee anywhere, for he never looked enslaved to the watch. He could be seen, merrily pacing up and down, near the slip road any time of the day he felt his limbs needed to stretch.....but it was only his looks that were slightly confusing as he appeared to gaze at something distant rather forlornly. A girl....I chuckled and hurriedly scanned around, only to find two dogs lazily enjoying their afternoon siesta under the electric tower nearby. Humans in the vicinity were visible only on two wheelers, three wheelers and four wheelers racing away to their destinations, speedily and single mindedly,........ leaving me downcast, at the likeliest of the probabilities being shot down without a warning.

The fellow too disappeared and I allowed my thoughts to gather and compose themselves and not rush to irrational conclusions. An hour passed by and I felt relaxed and calmed, when suddenly he made a fleeting appearance again, this time hurriedly running across the road and disappearing into thin air. My mind was again active, this time it worked like that of an educated citizen....is he surveying something, the important office buildings located nearby, the bus stop, the sub-station....conducting an organised recce, noting down every detail in his cunning mind for something......I shuddered at the thought of a terror incident in the vicinity of my office...was a proactive decision from myside the need of the hour, my mind was totally cluttered and in no position to take any intelligent decision. So I relied to retreat into a state of blissful ignorance for sometime...perhaps a cool mind coupled with a state of inertness was the pressing need of the hour.

I pulled my chair near the window and looked at the sky and the slight drizzle. The water in the temporary pond (on the adjacent plot) had receded and was now only ankle deep. A drongo was enjoying her bath right in the centre, with a pair of red wattled lapwings, hurriedly wading through towards the shade of the overarching branches of the enormous neem tree. As I watched them disappear, three buffaloes entered the arena, enormous creatures, black and shiny from a recent scrub bath, they were gingerly standing near the edge of the water, along with their faithful escorts, three white herons, tugging at their heels, not willing to risk their security, even for a minute.! The huge creatures looked as indecisive as my mind, whether they wanted to crossover to the other side through the muddy waters or they could take a slight detour and cross the hundred odd meters through the muck, onto the relative safety of the road. The biggest one in the centre seemed to have made her mind, and was gingerly stepping into the waters, when......appeared the prime suspect....with a stick in his hands.....tactfully withdrawing the three erring animals....and hurriedly leading them diagonally onto the road. All my near inferences and lopsided conclusions,that were on the verge of crystalising had crumbled in the two minutes he took in taking control of his animals. He could not wait for the signal to turn green...for the men behind the wheels had control over the brakes......he had only his stick and commands at his disposal...so the traffic waited, and he and his illustrious companions were given the privileged right of way! My eyes followed them as if in a trance...... they crossed and reached the edge of the park, where a cart and a horse too were waiting. The poor fellow hurriedly tried to put the harness and the horse together, when the rain came thumping down, blinding my vision through the windows. I pulled my chair back towards my table, and laughed silently at all the foolish thoughts I had harboured about the fellow and wondered if the cart he was harnessing, was to be used for ferrying the three buffaloes home? I quickly imagined the sight it would present and allowed myself a hearty laugh before the more serious office files on the table, nudged all the childish thoughts away!!!!

 

Sunday 26 July 2015

Little Joys


 

They fascinate me with their beauty,

They motivate me with their heights,

 For reasons unknown,

They attract me always,

The roads coiling around their bellies,

Beckons me,

Come along my child they whisper,

The voice which only I sometimes hear,

 

And when I can’t resist the urge to meet them,

 I follow them,

Drawn like the mouse to the Pied Piper,

But do they drown me?

Oh yes they do,

In the myriad boles of the stately deodars,

In the rugged branches of the friendly oaks,

In the song of the magpies and the whistle of the thrushes,

I don’t mind getting lost in the milky mist,

As the ethereal affection descends on me,

Caressing my face with that sublime touch,

And when I begin to regain my senses,

The resinous smell of the pines takes over,

I pick up a fallen cone,

And like a child delighted,

With an elusive toy coming his way,

I walk again,

A little lost,

A little dazed,

Till I reach a road again….

(Pratima Srivastava)

 

Thursday 16 April 2015


 
 
A few days ago I was attending a workshop. As I made my way back into the hall after the lunch break and was settling down on my seat….a patch of blood on the note book and the pen in my hand surprised me. Thinking that I had crushed a mosquito inadvertently underneath the note book…..I showed my blood stained thumb to my colleague sitting next to me and rushed towards the washroom to wash my hand. A few seconds after keeping my thumb under running water I realised that the blood wasn’t that of a dead mosquito, it was oozing out from a tiny but deep cut in my own  thumb. In my anxiety to rush back to the conference hall  so that I did not miss marking the all important attendance sheet for the session….I assumed that it must have been a rough edge of the handle of the washroom door and safely pressed my thumb against a handkerchief till it stopped bleeding. Now when I look back at that pretty ordinary incident something pricks me and tells me it is always easy to rely on a convenient presumption and remain in a state of blissful ignorance…. our own actions at times lead to hurt which we are unable to see….. Friends do read the book to explore all shades of human emotions…
 
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Wednesday 4 March 2015

An excerpt from the story Pebbles of Turbulence from my book "The Unfortunate kidnapping-tales of destiny"


The ten minute journey back home looked like hours long. On reaching home he had expected that his worried wife would be there at the gate, waiting. But there was no one, except Samir who was wandering in the verandah, alone. He opened the door and took the bag of medicines from his gandpa’s hands. Babuji had to hold Rani by the shoulder and escort her to her room as Mallika came rushing down from the roof to offer help. She took off Rani’s slippers and lay her in bed, with the father clutching her tightly, close to his heart. Samir came and affectionately held her hand and gently massaged her back, his tender mind appeared to have read some unpleasant message in his grandpa’s eyes.

Saturday 1 March 2014

The beauty of the undefined and the unresolved...........


It is said that blood  is thicker than water….absolutely it is….can anyone disagree? But then there is something else…something difficult to define.. which adds to the charm  and beauty of such relations….I have a few such experiences which have reinforced my belief in that something undefinable… and the last I had  a week ago. I was on my way to Chandigarh to attend a meeting scheduled the next day. Tired and bored after the long journey from Ferozepur….I was dozing off intermittently…extremely short sessions of sleep I stole…as subconsciously I knew it was criminal to occupy the front seat next to the driver and sleep even if it was for a few seconds. I had reached Ludhiana and was caught in the mad and reckless traffic of the city. My vehicle had crawled towards the Samrala chowk and I was slumped in my seat…desperately trying to keep my eyes open by engaging in some conversation with the driver on how much time it took always to cross the city…..on how many years it would be before the unfinished under construction fly overs would be operational regulating the traffic flow and reducing the congestion. I craned my neck to stare at the driver of a passing vehicle only and only when the driver attempted something too daring…some breathtaking  manouvers, otherwise I let it rest in the sleep mode I was in. But I don’t know, out of a sudden impulse I straightened up and looked at the driver of the neighbouring car who was driving in his lane if there was any…in perfect order….and I was in for a pleasant surprise…it was my younger brother at the steering. Though I knew I was driving through the city where he lived but seeing him in traffic and that too at a time when he was expected to be in office was puzzling. I immediately rolled down my window and like a child shouted his name….and can you believe… I might be too childish….foolish and sentimental but he too saw me at once and rolled down his window…In the honking traffic we were in I could easily ask where he was going but as he was driving, he asked me to stop at a stop a little ahead…..and then I asked the driver to give way to his car…and follow him….till we reached the decided stop. Once there, we had a brief chat, … ten minutes in all …..I had no time to stop over at his place for lunch …. …but the happiness and the energy that I felt afterwards is beyond words. For the rest of my two hour journey I was cheerful…upbeat..and wide awake….lost in thoughts…of time gone by…of our childhood days and also wondering what was that invisible force, that impulse that made me suddenly peep out of the window at that juncture…in that crazy traffic where there were 6-7 rows of vehicles of all kinds trying to overtake each other….I am still looking for some sensible reason….but I would be happy …even if I don’t find any…some things are beautiful…when they remain unresolved…